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wohoo. decided i am guiltless no more.
damn bitch right?:p

went to town to collect jies cake. phew. lucky didnt go yogs. with the congestion due to the ng teng fongs funeral wake funeral wake( missy heres too lazy to google the difference. )
anyhows. yummy lavender and almond biscuits again! can ceele please dont ever let it disappear again. its one of my ultimate happy food. +the elmer fudge.

still sniffing. bet my nose is gonaa drop off one day.

crap been putting in so much food, LJ's yummy brekkie etc. although there was tht massive jam. glad i took the effort to buy for them. at least they look happy munching! :)

complete this sentence.
the bitch always meets -.

i completed mine with ---------s.
:)
hmms. had my yummy-licious lunch, went for yogs despite my running nose. was a lil apprehensive since the teachers strictness actually got me a bit didint wanna go his class. but all was great. sweat it out and he seemed to be alrightys with me. considering how he thank you every one but thank you very much to me.yay. no not some teachers pet. just self attainment with doing hot vinyasa(flow ) with my running nose. boy did the nose flow too..

but pigged ot with trying cny snacks to buy aft! did most of it alr:) so alls gd. seems like i wont be making my annual cny trip to chinatown this year:( guess i shouldnt go with the team since i aint racing with them no more. family hates the crowd so yeah. sighs. oh well, a non festive cny for me then. manage to soak in the atmosphere in taka buying the snacks at the atrium. all my mom and sis needed me for was the opinion on what they alr picked so yeah.
had my happy food of egg tart and cedele's lavender biscuits which disappeared for darn long!! glad it came back. i need another dose with my first statement in the post. okae. tmr!

glad i ran into ccb in school. at least he allowed me to have a brief downto earth buddy moment for tdy.

i am gonna make a photowall on my cupboard when i am free.
most likely aft the exams and all though. resizing, developing and pasting it on :) niceeeee.

when pple have to study, they simply think of the more mundane things they wanna do right away.
and probably forget them when the exams end:( sighs.

anyways, sniffles for the past few days. am sick. got me rendering to my bed for comfort although my slumber aint tht deep cos being sick sucks. been trying to turn in early and not going for yoga.
hmm. and yet, my appetite still darn gd or even better. craving for more sweet esserts hit an all time high. maybe its cos normal fd tastes so darn bland. and of cos my at least one cup a coffee a day turned into at least 2 . >.

get this straight. I dun wanna just be ur novelty, tht short term muse. well, worth it ?





we shall see.

okae. had an alright last wk. met up with the lse peeps on fri:) din and hangout was great esp when mp was yums.
met jb and han on sun for ikea lunch. sad tht cecilia cmi though. abrupt end to the lovely catchup session though. I needed to go to wu quan 1mth celebration at peach garden..
yups. guess what I said was true. sometimes, u simply know which friend last you a life time.

certainly do hope this is the last post abt you my gd friend. this will be the last of that term for u though. decided tht its best we are just friends or even acquaintances.

thankew so much for enlightening me on how tolerant, forgiving,silly and loyal I can be.
and thanks for the effort you took to paint things abt my life to others although I doubt you really know what's going on. I know everything you do is simply more tiring than me. even if u never did the things I did b4. and that I always have it easier than you every single time. and how I am just a novelty. a st phase thing to everyone. u really bring my esteem to an old time high. thankew so much.

I know I am being an utter bitch with my sarcasm but wait. aint that just a mirror of you?
once bitten twice shy thrice silly and what's more? I guess I am beynd tht. don't come probing in my life or forming things abt it in ur head.
byeeeee.

crying wolf.
&
acting like an injured puppy.
what's next I wonder?
am so freaking sick, & disgusted.
those fooled by you I won't bother.
my sheer disappointment is evident of what I thought of our friendship.
maybe it shows me they really aren't worth it and the fact that they are as bad as u said they are.
but 1 thing I don't get:
why are you trying to get close?
go on push tht knife you stabbed in further. it won't hurt anymuch longer hopefully.

I so need to repeat to myself my mind is strong. my will too. :`( I have to be stronger and not led by emotions. no tears,no crying. wall defense again?

confiding in my mom abt some issues. well I know. probably thinking it weird to confide in the folks right? somehow just needed it. reaffirmed certain things abt tht so called friendship I blogged abt recently. got kinda upset but I guess what she said was true. I was lucky to have realised rather than being led blindly all the way:)

nice song! :)

the walls still strong and sturdy.
doesn't look like its giving way anytime soon.
ever wished you could get yourself drunk silly at times?
till you puke and maybe pass out?
just to get rid of the bad and negative?
and to wake up as though your life starts out on a fresh new chapter.
cos sometimes I craved it.

I can't help but realise how selfish and realistic you are.
and
I am scared of becoming just like you.

its how they say one becomes like the company they mix with.
I don't wanna become sefish, realistic and always put myself in first place. they say treat pple the way you wana be treated. I doubt ANYONE wants to have a good friend like this.
ciao

yups, i have tonnes of things i was suppose to update.
some of the pics are on fb, so i wont blog abt my visit to the wet mkt!the nice uncles and aunties! :)


anyways my moms bday was first in line 12/12


its a bit faulty so i cant upload too many pictures! :( having my delicious crumpets for brekkie! :) i really miss UK. and europe!


and what i wore to auntie ivy's bday:)i must must post this because, i bought this top and i couldnt wear it after joining db. gave it to my mom. and.. viola! hee. i can wear it again. found it in my wardrobe! realise i have clothes ewhich i haven worn or yeah forgot abt.. opps.


next was mich's on the 19/12
didnt take any so i shall kope it online.


and there was the post race celebration on wed! :)



one of my ber fav pic of the night!


XMAS EVE.wii and sarps at my place!



enjoyable memos of 2009!
well, i still have pics in my other camera. pics of fd mainly cos i took pics of fd at rose veranda. yums. triply yums.will load it up soon okae. soon!
new years was spend with cuz at my place! chit chatted and looked at some of our childhood pics! uber funny. we were teasing and laughing at one another.welcome 2010. did 2 session of yogs today >.<
i so need to detoxify all the bad stuff i have consumed. healthy regime? :)
but it aint working.
this week started with high tea and its gonna end with high tea at sheraton towers. i promise to take pics and load it up! :)
no to healthy regime cos i tend to eat my worth at buffets! :)
shall load up the pictures and boy do i need to stop procrastinating.
off to the office to print notes and class tmr ! :( gahhhhh.
sat classes are uber :(

the guilty will walk away , while the right ones will remain standing. head held high.

hee, the festive feasting has began and i think my body is directly proportional to it!
anyhows, i met this really cute uncle on my way out. near my hse bus stop.
he smiled, i smiled.
he say ni hao, and i returned it.
he proceeded to ask if i was singaporean and i said yeah.
he said hao, hen hao.

somehow, it make me wonder if i look more like i come from another country due to my skin colour. hmms..
had a uber lazy day today though.
looking forward to tmr! :)

i should stop procrastinating too.
great day to sleep. the rain:)
the only times i uber hate it is when i wanna swim and it comes.or when i have to walk in it and i have my things with me. if not, i am cool with playing in the rain:)

no :
second fiddle.
wrecker.
commodity.
enough said?

everyone always says the early bird get the worm,
but
early worm gets eaten by the birds! :) ( just to annoy whoever said the first line!)
anyhows, woke up early to spend time with my dad who will be flying off again soon enough.:)

suppose to dine with some of the clients i know that have flown here from taiwan, my fav place! :)
but with mich and eunices' bdays. well, i kind of erm, pushed my responsibility aside for awhile?;) hee.
will make it up to them with lunch tmr. am gonna head for mich's bday since she asked first and i RSVP like way back.so yuped.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALL!

actually looking at recipes online, i wanna make B&BP! the healthier way of cos. its one of my favourite indulgences . i can even eat it without the V sauce!:)
and of cos the italian food that i miss so much.monica, your spagh was awesome, simply yet yums... and i miss tht sandwich place we visited on your last day there!missing pauls in paris and london too.
i figured that searching for recipes and modifying somethings might make it healthier! besides, wanna encourage dad to eat healthy and not eat lesser.his concept is just a bit weird.:)
so yuped. when i have the time, i am gonna thi nk of a way to midify e B&BP recipe, and make lovely food!
didnt i tell you i made an uber awesome scrumptious sort of tuna sandwich like years back? forgot the exact recipe. but i know it came in coupled with apples, walnuts, onions.. and a whole lot more that i forgot and didnt keep the recipe. silly me. have to start figuring once again!:)
yummy and fresh food are definitely worth it. if its gah. ewww.
looking forward to brunches with jie. my other fav!

and with the poem that anon left me.
i shall return one. posting it here. unless you are in an emo/dilemic(if there is such a word) mood,it wont really help:)
kinda kept it a secret but i decided to share it with the audience of my blog and its dedicated to everyone who comes here.

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support,
To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are..
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
This person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
Things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson,
Love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant

Thank you for being a part of my life,
Whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

hope this helps, even if its just a lil. and its not written by me yea? i dunno who wrote it so i cant credit it. :)

i seriously have no idea what is wrong with me now.
maybe theres too much holding me back, maybe .
theres just so much i am suppose to do, i know i have a whole backload of pple i am suppose to meet suppose to catch up with but i keep putting them off.
somethings really wrong this time maybe?
like i normally crave the company of every one of my pals, but this year i simply want maybe some alone time?
maybe i have made far too many mistakes i need to reflect.
being in a constant question mark feeling aint the best sort of feeling actually?

being unmotivated and lazy. what else?
i actually asked miss how, what if i left sg for an unknown period of time and not letting anyone know, till i am in the airport.and just a short sms. will be away for some time.no details no clue of where i will be and when i will be back. such a nice thought.but all she said was: i come back i die. haha.

and i actually thought of maybe spending xmas alone with just the tv at home watching marathons of GG, privileged, 90210. etc. with tonnes of my loackers! :) in case you didnt know i just massive load on it, having bought the tiramisu, coffee and dark choco ones. yums. but it aint really tht feasible seeing tht its me right?

and the fact i didnt have a 21st bash is evident of wanting to keep things down, maybe tone down a few notches? i realy dont know wheres the usual me.

clubbing next week, something we have been looking forward to since i return from the far away land BUT now, i am actually contemplating.

KNOCK KNOCK, wheres E?!
pfft. of to update my to do , to meet list i guess.sghs.

yes please continue doing what you do best.
reprimanding pple, creating unhappy vibes,giving that whole KICKASS attitude.
and ratting.
i so beg you to.
oh yea and that assuming...ahhh

WHATEVER. tsk. just dont come ard ruining whats left of my day alright.

sometimes in life, you do things you have to, not whether you really want to.
and because of that, being made to do something recently.
somehow i just felt it aint over yet.
basically cause it wasnt based on my own will.definitely not what i wanted.
but guess all i can do now is to stay by the sidelines and to watch.
giving my support in the bestest way i can . as always.

sometimes, just knowing or giving an individual that extra push or encouragement, helping from the back stage can help.
or even understanding how a person feels but wants to keep their front, yet maintaining that sort of unspoken state.
even if it comes with no form of spoken gratitude at all. its all worth it to be that helping hand.

i dont wanna be an enigma.
one of the stt in the trailer of that pippa lee movie. seems nice. topped up with blake.l and k.reeves:)
and
sometimes you know an indiv way too well.
it can be a good or bad thing.
knowing what that individual ccan be capable of and knowing the extent of their ruthlessness.
i am beginning to have that sort of ques mark. like hmms.
the likely chance of u doing all those deeds to achieve smething.
well,its highly likely.